I really need to change the way that I blog. In one sense, what I write about is really me. It's what I think about. I'm obsessed with correct thinking. It matters to me, very deeply, that the thoughts that I have are accurate. When I started this blog, my intention was to put out there anything in the hopes that wrong thoughts would be corrected by commenters. I had hoped that I would (eventually) get a sufficient volume of comments so that I could test my thoughts against the collective wisdom of others. I haven't been able to get a lot of comments. So it hasn't panned out the way that I'd hoped. My point is that my purpose for this blog was as an exercise in correcting my thinking.
But then I watched the video from TED. And I think I have to change some things.
I really don't think that this blog can be only about how I think. I look at the records that this woman has of her ancestry and it's barely anything. But, yet through blogging she knows perfect strangers from across the globe far more intimately than even her grandparents.
Niffer is quickly becoming one of my favorite bloggers. I read whatever she posts almost as soon as she posts it. Because her blog captures the story of how she sees her daughter. It's really quite beautiful. It's WAAAY better than my blog. I wonder if my children ever read my blog if they'd recognize me.
It's ironic. My pastor has a blog. It's only moderately interesting, despite the fact that I find little to criticize about the thinking behind it. But from the start, I've thought that his blog wasn't really much of a blog. I learn absolutely nothing about the man writing it. Instead it's just another outlet for him to teach. And that's a good thing. But as a blog its boring.
I don't think I need to remove the posts that are about my thinking. I need to do that. Thinking is important to me. But I need to put more stuff into this that is about my general experiences and how I react to them. I guess I just hope that someday, when my children are able to show this to their children, that they will get a sense of who I was. Not just what I thought.